And hearts begin to fly (Rachel, Danny, Val)
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Since the day she, Danny and Zoe had skipped school, the fog surrounding her thoughts and her moods had continued to hold. Every day Imogene had got her out of bed and taken her to school and every day she had sat in her classrooms feeling numb and blank and stupid, and frustrated with herself for all of this. Frustrated that she couldn't shake it. Frustrated that she couldn't find anything interesting or funny to say around Danny and Zoe. Terrified that any day now they were going to get bored with her, tired of her.
One night the terror of losing them grew stronger than the fog, and she was up all night, pacing the halls till Indigo-Hope yelled at her to stop being so mentally challenged, so she went to pace her room instead. Back and forth, bare feet flattening her fluffy rugs. Back and forth till everyone else had gone to bed and she could sneak into the games room where the liquor cabinet was and find something to take the frightening edges of her mind.
Rachel sat cross legged on her fluffy rug, drinking straight from the bottle of bourbon and glaring at herself in the mirror.
Rachel quite liked bourbon. It made her feel like a roaring log fire.
A fire burning away the worst bits of herself. All the boring bits, all the hard bits, all the bits that might exhaust a friend like it exhausted her father.
She had to be better than this. If she wanted to keep Danny and Zoe. She had to be a better friend, a better person.
Rachel threw open the doors of her closet. It was a big closet, and the first she'd ever had all to herself. She had more clothes now than she'd ever had before. Nicer ones, too. She found a dress, a light cotton floral number that hit her long legs mid thigh, belted with purple leather. She liked the look of herself in this one, especially paired with her purple boots.
She leaned into the mirror as she put her favourite red lipstick on, stared at her reflection for a long moment. Her roots were starting to show again; maybe she should dye it purple next time.
Well she certainly looked like a better person. Someone ready to party. Someone fun. She smiled at herself in the mirror. Maybe Imogene was right and all it really took was an attitude adjustment.
Me and Dad, we're good at lying, she thought, giving herself a wink in the mirror.
Escaping her silent house was easy. Weeks before, she'd written the alarm code on the back of the photo of Indigo that hung nearest the door. It was written on the underside of the letterbox outside too, because she knew she'd forget it.
Regent's Park was closed for the night, so she had to skirt around it, keeping a close eye on the shadows on the other side of the fences. A lot of horror stories came out of that park. She'd been obsessed with the modern day gothic horror of the Ravensdales when the whole story broke; rich twins from old money, a murderous brother in the attic. She didn't believe in ghosts but if any park in London was going to be haunted, it was this one.
It had rained for most of the day and the air was cold, but dry, and she kept her blood warm and her heart brave with the hipflask of bourbon she had tucked into her bra. Even though it was past midnight there were still cars on the road, their tires making long hissing noises on the wet road as they drove past.
Rachel located the tree outside Danny's house, boosting herself up on one of the thick roots so she could wrap her arms around one of the lowest branches. It was thick and awkward, but she gripped her hands together, braced her feet against the trunk and walked up the tree, till her legs were high enough to hook over another branch. She climbed her way up without fear of falling, without fear of anything much.
She swung herself onto his roof, stumbling at the uneven surface and thumping onto her hands and knees. Silently she waited, crouching like an animal, feeling wild and free and reckless. The wind caught her hair and lifted it up, and when Rachel stood again she almost felt like she could fly. For a moment she really believed she might be able to. Spread her arms like wings, catch the wind and fly.
But she was only human, and climbing was as close as she could get to flight.
She pointed her toes like she was dancing and lightly stepped across Danny's roof till she came to his window, his skylight set directly into the ceiling. Kneeling beside it, she tapped her fingers in a rhythm across the glass, and when she saw his face appear she smiled, and left a lipstick kiss on the damp window.
One night the terror of losing them grew stronger than the fog, and she was up all night, pacing the halls till Indigo-Hope yelled at her to stop being so mentally challenged, so she went to pace her room instead. Back and forth, bare feet flattening her fluffy rugs. Back and forth till everyone else had gone to bed and she could sneak into the games room where the liquor cabinet was and find something to take the frightening edges of her mind.
Rachel sat cross legged on her fluffy rug, drinking straight from the bottle of bourbon and glaring at herself in the mirror.
Rachel quite liked bourbon. It made her feel like a roaring log fire.
A fire burning away the worst bits of herself. All the boring bits, all the hard bits, all the bits that might exhaust a friend like it exhausted her father.
She had to be better than this. If she wanted to keep Danny and Zoe. She had to be a better friend, a better person.
Rachel threw open the doors of her closet. It was a big closet, and the first she'd ever had all to herself. She had more clothes now than she'd ever had before. Nicer ones, too. She found a dress, a light cotton floral number that hit her long legs mid thigh, belted with purple leather. She liked the look of herself in this one, especially paired with her purple boots.
She leaned into the mirror as she put her favourite red lipstick on, stared at her reflection for a long moment. Her roots were starting to show again; maybe she should dye it purple next time.
Well she certainly looked like a better person. Someone ready to party. Someone fun. She smiled at herself in the mirror. Maybe Imogene was right and all it really took was an attitude adjustment.
Me and Dad, we're good at lying, she thought, giving herself a wink in the mirror.
Escaping her silent house was easy. Weeks before, she'd written the alarm code on the back of the photo of Indigo that hung nearest the door. It was written on the underside of the letterbox outside too, because she knew she'd forget it.
Regent's Park was closed for the night, so she had to skirt around it, keeping a close eye on the shadows on the other side of the fences. A lot of horror stories came out of that park. She'd been obsessed with the modern day gothic horror of the Ravensdales when the whole story broke; rich twins from old money, a murderous brother in the attic. She didn't believe in ghosts but if any park in London was going to be haunted, it was this one.
It had rained for most of the day and the air was cold, but dry, and she kept her blood warm and her heart brave with the hipflask of bourbon she had tucked into her bra. Even though it was past midnight there were still cars on the road, their tires making long hissing noises on the wet road as they drove past.
Rachel located the tree outside Danny's house, boosting herself up on one of the thick roots so she could wrap her arms around one of the lowest branches. It was thick and awkward, but she gripped her hands together, braced her feet against the trunk and walked up the tree, till her legs were high enough to hook over another branch. She climbed her way up without fear of falling, without fear of anything much.
She swung herself onto his roof, stumbling at the uneven surface and thumping onto her hands and knees. Silently she waited, crouching like an animal, feeling wild and free and reckless. The wind caught her hair and lifted it up, and when Rachel stood again she almost felt like she could fly. For a moment she really believed she might be able to. Spread her arms like wings, catch the wind and fly.
But she was only human, and climbing was as close as she could get to flight.
She pointed her toes like she was dancing and lightly stepped across Danny's roof till she came to his window, his skylight set directly into the ceiling. Kneeling beside it, she tapped her fingers in a rhythm across the glass, and when she saw his face appear she smiled, and left a lipstick kiss on the damp window.
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Date: 2014-04-03 11:01 am (UTC)From:Thank fuck too, because Danny didn't want to have to call the cops because a psychopath was trying to break into his house.
He flicked on the lamp and made sure his door was closed before hefting himself off the bed and towards the skylight. The handle twisted and he pulled it towards him, the look on his face expression concern. "Rachel," he whispered, "why...why are you on my ceiling."
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Date: 2014-04-03 11:12 am (UTC)From:He dragged his step-ladder out and under the window, using it to heft himself up and out of the skylight. "It's late, are you okay?" he asked, crawling to sit next to her.
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Date: 2014-04-03 01:07 pm (UTC)From:"Come on." Danny stood and lowered himself back on to his step-ladder before reaching his arms out so he could help her down it. The last thing he wanted was for her to fall and hurt herself.
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Date: 2014-04-06 10:56 am (UTC)From:"I could just say them over and over again when you need me to?" he asked, chuckling at the poke at his chest. "I'm sorry things get bleak sometimes. It sucks. I always hate feeling those storm clouds roll in and all you can really do is like...weather the storm."
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