Darker London-Uncover what is underneath...

After Tasha's strange comments about Avery, Renee felt it was probably best to get in touch with Jack. She'd been meaning to, anyway, not wanting him to feel alone in the institution. She knew how it felt to be there, and he would probably need all the support he could get.

She sat down at the computer, and brought up her e-mail.

( e-mailing Jack )

Between therapy and visitors, Renee had barely had a moment to herself over the last few days... not that she was complaining. She loved having so many people show that they cared, even while she was locked away in here. And it would be such a drag to come all the way here, to suffer through the procedures and doctors and just being in this place... they wouldn't do it if they didn't love her. It was ironic really... here, now, separated from all of her friends, she felt more loved than she had in a very long time.

( writing to the boys )

Because of her cooperation in therapy and lucid nature, Renee hadn't had too much trouble negotiating for more writing time. So now she sat in the common room, pen in hand, paper before her, doctor watching her discreetly...

Renee couldn't imagine writing a harder letter, no matter how long they kept her in here.

My dearest Jack,

I am sure Deirdre has been keeping you up to date with everything that has happened to me. I am so sorry if I worried you. I probably shouldn't go into details here, but I promise you that none of this was supposed to happen. Deirdre will tell you anything you want to know. I told her she could.

I'm not writing to explain why I am in here, though. I wanted apologise to you. I was very stupid when you came to visit. I really made a mess of things, and I am so very sorry. I wasn't thinking. I was in a terrible state of mind, and I needed somebody to make me feel attractive and loved. You did that for me and I fucked it all u made a mess of ruined everything.

Deirdre tells me that things are getting better between you and Jake and Avery. I'm sorry that they got worse because of me.

Jack, you are one of the best friends I have ever had. I don't want to lose you. But I understand if you don't want to see me or hear from me anymore. I have no right to expect that friendsh anything of you.

I still love you, Jack. And I have learnt my lesson. I will never do anything so stupid again. Please forgive me. But I won't hold it against you if you don't. Please.

I wish I could see you. I wish I could apologise in person. But that might not happen for a long time, and I don't think that this is something that can wait.

I am sorry, Jack. I really don't know what more I can say.

I hope I hear from you soon, I really do.

Love always,

~ Renee

Renee sealed the letter into the envlope and rose to give it to the doctor. He made a slightly incredulous face as he read the address.

"Cape Town, Renee?"

Renee simply nodded.

The doctor shrugged. "Okay." The long-distance postage wouldn't bother him, or anyone. It would simply go on Renee's bill at the end.

The letter out of the way, Renee made her way back to her room, hoping for visitors. It was Easter Sunday. Someone was sure to visit.