darker_london | Renee - more letters

Between therapy and visitors, Renee had barely had a moment to herself over the last few days... not that she was complaining. She loved having so many people show that they cared, even while she was locked away in here. And it would be such a drag to come all the way here, to suffer through the procedures and doctors and just being in this place... they wouldn't do it if they didn't love her. It was ironic really... here, now, separated from all of her friends, she felt more loved than she had in a very long time.

Maybe this place really was good for something. She would certainly never doubt them again.

With these things in mind, she sat down in the common room, within easy view of one of the supervising nurses. Therapy had finished early today, so she finally had time to write back to Jack.

My dear Jack,

Thank you so much for being so understanding. I never should have doubted you.

Of course, I accept your apology as well. You're right, of course. We both did this. We both messed up. But now it is time to put it behind us and try to make things better. I am very glad that Avery has found a solution. He's a smart boy - and very, very special.

You are a brother to me, Jack. You are the best brother a sister could ever ask for. I hope someday... that Jake and Avery will be able to see me as family too. When I am finished writing this, I will write to them too, and apologise. They deserve to hear it.

Thank you for having faith in me. I don't think I will be released before your birthday. I'm sorry, Jack. I will be getting day leave on my birthday though, which is only two days after yours. We could see each other at Dante's then, I will be having as much of a party as I can before I am brought back here.

I hope everything is well in Cape Town. I miss you terribly. Seeing you again only made me miss you all the more when you went back home.

It was so nice hugging you. You give the best boy hugs. And of course, you are a fantastic kisser as well...

I feel so much better after receiving your letter. We seem to be working things out... maybe we are not so stupid after all.

Thank you again, Jack... for everything.

Love always,

~ Renee

Now, for the hard one. What on earth could she possibly say to those two boys to make it better? Well, "sorry" would probably be a start...

Dear Jake and Avery,

This is a letter for both of you - and whoever you would like to see it - to say that I am so sorry for what I did with Jack. It was stupid and unconscionable. I was in a terrible state of mind. I know it is no excuse. But Jack made me feel loved when I felt particularly unloveable. I know now that it was stupid for me to feel like that. I have so many people who love me. But, you know... maybe I really was a little bit crazy, before all of this.

I don't want to lose you, my dear friends. I know I have no right to expect your friendship any more... or even your forgiveness. But... I would like to have it, if you will have me. If nothing else, please believe that I have learnt my lesson. I will never do anything like this ever again.

You are both amazing people, and I was very lucky to have you in my life. I hope I can still be so lucky.

I hope everything is well in Cape Town. I really do miss you. Please... take care of each other. I know I don't have to say it, but... well, I just want you to know that I care.

Forever yours,

~ Renee

There... that read pretty well, or so she hoped, at least. She sealed the two envelopes and brought them over to the nurse, who simply shook her head with a wry smile as she express mailed Cape Town twice more. Then, suddenly feeling quite tired, Renee made her way back to her room, her flowers and her chocolate.