Jude and Deirdre - The Test
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darker_londonJude paced across her room.
Back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, until it was nothing more than habit and she wasn't sure she'd even be able to stop doing it if she wanted to.
The little box was sitting on her bed. It looked out of place. It looked menacing. She spared it a glance, small white box on her dark green bedspread, and then looked away, continuing to pace.
What was she going to do? This wasn't really happening. No, not really. She was dreaming. She was making it up. She kept hoping that maybe her period really was just late. She knew it was unlikely with her regular she usually was, but it wasn't impossible and so she clung to the hope.
She crossed her arms as she paced, rubbing her palms quickly up and down her bare forearms. She hadn't eaten in about two days and she'd barely slept. She knew she must look a mess. After all, how much had she eaten since this whole thing with leaving home had happened anyway?
She jumped when she heard the knocking on her door.
deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-26 11:21 pm UTC (link)
Deirdre stood in the hallway, wringing her hands. With everything that had happened in the last 24 hours, how did it seem like this was the most important? The most scary? Because it was Jude. When the door opened, Deirdre tried to act casual, but as all bad liars do, she wasn't good at it.
"Hello. I am here now."
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 12:03 am UTC (link)
Jude nodded and didn't make any smart remarks. She didn't seem to have them in her tonight. "Yeah," was all she said. She looked over to the box and then at the floor and, finally, at Deirdre. "Tell me everything is going to be alright."
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 12:21 am UTC (link)
"Everything will be fine, Jude. Should we get it over with?"
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 12:26 am UTC (link)
She nodded and walked over to the bed, picking up the box and turning it over in her hands. She'd read the instructions at least a dozen times but now she read them again. She nodded once more. "Alright. I can do this. Just a- it's okay." She looked at Deirdre. Lie to me please, Deirdre. Tell me I'm safe here. Tell me that this will all be nothing tommorrow. Please, Deidre
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 12:33 am UTC (link)
"It is okay, Jude. And I'll be here through all of it." She would be. She knew at any second that her father could get her, and she knew she probably SHOULD take Jack's offer and fly to Cape Town, but she couldn't leave Jude. Jude needed her. Here she would stay.
"Everything will be just fine, you'll see."
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 12:48 am UTC (link)
Jude tightened her grip on the box and nodded once more, walking to the bathroom and walking inside. She paused and looked back at Deidre. "I'll do this bit alone," she told her and closed the door with a quiet click.
Come on, Jude. Get it over with.
She opened the box and read the leaflet inside and then did as instructed, all the while her body shaking with nerves. Don't think about it, don't think about it.
When she was done and put the stick down on the counter and washed her hands, looking at her haggerd reflection in the mirror. This wasn't right.
Slowly she opened the door. "It's done," she told Deirdre. "Now I have to wait." she seemed to sound a lot braver and together than she felt.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 12:58 am UTC (link)
Deirdre crossed the room and took hold of Jude's hand lightly.
"How long do you wait?"
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 01:08 am UTC (link)
Jude didn't shake her off but swallowed and reached for the piece of paper. "Um," she scanned. "It says...3 minutes." She couldn't meet the other girl's eye. She felt so dirty and...ashamed. What must Deirdre think of her? She must know who was responsible for this. She must know because or else she would have asked. Jude knew that much. She kept reading. "Um, one purple stripe means negative and two mean postive." She wouldn't say pregnant.
She slid down the wall and sat with her back to the bathtub, trying not to even look at the little white stick by the sink.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 01:11 am UTC (link)
Three minutes? Almost up. God, this was the longest three minutes on the face of the planet. Deirdre fiddled with the end of her shirt and tapped her toe until she noticed Jude staring at it.
"Sorry..I-" Sorry would never be enough. She took a seat on the floor next to Jude to wait.
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 01:17 am UTC (link)
She nodded. "Why?" she asked her. "Nothing for you to be sorry about. This is-" all my own fault. She bit her lip to keep silent and took a long unsteady breath.
Three minutes. Too long. Too long! It was like the entire world had been taken over by her screaming nerves and tense muscles. No words, no thoughts, just terror and shock and oh god, what do I do? What do I do???
She watched the clock on the bathroom wall.
A minute and a half to go.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 01:22 am UTC (link)
Deirdre wanted nothing more than to pull Jude into her lap and kiss her. But that wasn't going to accomplish ANYthing except maybe Jude running out of here for good. She sighed.
"No I...I was tapping. I tapped." Fucking hell. Why the hell did the test take 3 WHOLE minutes!? It was cruel. Deirdre eyed the clock as well, cracking her knuckles and cursing herself for doing a crappy job of taking care of her friend. She tried to give her a reassuring smile. Soon. They'd know soon.
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 01:30 am UTC (link)
And there it was. Three minutes.
Jude has stopped breathing somewhere and she looked at Deirdre. "Three minutes."
Slowly she stood up from the floor, not looking at Deirdre again, and walked over to the bench where the stick lay. She looked at Deirdre again and then lifted the stick, breath still held.
Negative.
Jude breathed. And then she laughed.
And then she fainted.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 01:34 am UTC (link)
Oh Jesus fucking Christ! Relief flooded through Deirdre's body, until Jude's went limp and fell to the ground. Deirdre wasn't quick enough and Jude hit the floor with a thud.
Deirdre knelt down trying to bring Jude around. "Jude! Wake the hell up!!" Finally she splashed the girl's face with water from the sink. "WAKE UP!"
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 01:36 am UTC (link)
Jude shook her head at the water and coughed and then looked at Deirdre above her. She smiled weakly. "I'm not pregnant," she whispered.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 01:42 am UTC (link)
"I know, Darling. I know." She smiled kindly down at Jude and then hlped the girl to her feet.
"Pig out fest to celebrate? You should eat something. And NOT banana brownies."
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 01:47 am UTC (link)
She laughed, loud and for longer than she should have. It was like a giant weight had finally been lifted from her and she had nothing to worry about anymore.
And, now that Deirdre mentioned it, she was really hungry. She wondered if that was why the room was spinning. Probably that and lack of sleep. "Food." she nodded. "I could eat."
Then, without knowing quite why she did it, she grabbed Deirdre and pulled her into a tight hug, pressing herself against the other girl and clinging. "thankyou," she breathed into Deirdre's shoulder.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 01:56 am UTC (link)
Deirdre closed her eyes, feeling the other girl's body against her. She held her tight and smiled. "Anytime, Jude. Really."
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 02:05 am UTC (link)
She pulled away slowly, the prolonged contact a little uncomfortable. "Let's go eat." Before I fall over.
Jude felt like life could start again. She didn't think she'd ever been so relieved in her life.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 02:10 am UTC (link)
Deirdre nodded and grinned, leading the girl slowly down the stairs. She handed Jude some garlic bread to snack on and then set about making some pasta. Pasta was good and filling.
"Do you like onion?"
She felt a little silly. Not 10 minutes ago, she'd been scare dout of her mind and now she was asking the girl if she liked onion. Still, Jude seemed so happy, she wasn't going to dwell on it. She was actually enjoying taking care of the girl. A little picture of domestic bliss? Maybe not that.
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 02:13 am UTC (link)
Jude chewed on the garlic bread. Alright, Jude devoured the garlic bread. Oh god, food! All the space that had been filled with gnawing worry was now filled with almost blinding hunger. "Onions good," she told her. "Everything," she said and looked at her, her smile still of relief. "I eat everything."
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 02:20 am UTC (link)
Deirdre laughed and smiled. "Everything. Good to know." She went back to her cooking, and soon, placed a plate of Spaghetti Bolognese in front of Jude.
"Onions are in there. Enjoy." She sat down in the chair beside Jude and picked up and apple.
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 02:26 am UTC (link)
Jude dived into the food placed in front of her. Oh god, so good! "You're a brilliant cook," she told her, mouth half full of food. She finished chewing and looked thoughtful. "And a good friend," she said seriously as she met Deirdre's eye.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 02:32 am UTC (link)
Deirdre blushed and looked intently at her apple. "Oh, hey...no problem. And thanks for the cook compliment. It comes from making my own meals since I was 9."
Back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, until it was nothing more than habit and she wasn't sure she'd even be able to stop doing it if she wanted to.
The little box was sitting on her bed. It looked out of place. It looked menacing. She spared it a glance, small white box on her dark green bedspread, and then looked away, continuing to pace.
What was she going to do? This wasn't really happening. No, not really. She was dreaming. She was making it up. She kept hoping that maybe her period really was just late. She knew it was unlikely with her regular she usually was, but it wasn't impossible and so she clung to the hope.
She crossed her arms as she paced, rubbing her palms quickly up and down her bare forearms. She hadn't eaten in about two days and she'd barely slept. She knew she must look a mess. After all, how much had she eaten since this whole thing with leaving home had happened anyway?
She jumped when she heard the knocking on her door.
deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-26 11:21 pm UTC (link)
Deirdre stood in the hallway, wringing her hands. With everything that had happened in the last 24 hours, how did it seem like this was the most important? The most scary? Because it was Jude. When the door opened, Deirdre tried to act casual, but as all bad liars do, she wasn't good at it.
"Hello. I am here now."
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 12:03 am UTC (link)
Jude nodded and didn't make any smart remarks. She didn't seem to have them in her tonight. "Yeah," was all she said. She looked over to the box and then at the floor and, finally, at Deirdre. "Tell me everything is going to be alright."
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 12:21 am UTC (link)
"Everything will be fine, Jude. Should we get it over with?"
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 12:26 am UTC (link)
She nodded and walked over to the bed, picking up the box and turning it over in her hands. She'd read the instructions at least a dozen times but now she read them again. She nodded once more. "Alright. I can do this. Just a- it's okay." She looked at Deirdre. Lie to me please, Deirdre. Tell me I'm safe here. Tell me that this will all be nothing tommorrow. Please, Deidre
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 12:33 am UTC (link)
"It is okay, Jude. And I'll be here through all of it." She would be. She knew at any second that her father could get her, and she knew she probably SHOULD take Jack's offer and fly to Cape Town, but she couldn't leave Jude. Jude needed her. Here she would stay.
"Everything will be just fine, you'll see."
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 12:48 am UTC (link)
Jude tightened her grip on the box and nodded once more, walking to the bathroom and walking inside. She paused and looked back at Deidre. "I'll do this bit alone," she told her and closed the door with a quiet click.
Come on, Jude. Get it over with.
She opened the box and read the leaflet inside and then did as instructed, all the while her body shaking with nerves. Don't think about it, don't think about it.
When she was done and put the stick down on the counter and washed her hands, looking at her haggerd reflection in the mirror. This wasn't right.
Slowly she opened the door. "It's done," she told Deirdre. "Now I have to wait." she seemed to sound a lot braver and together than she felt.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 12:58 am UTC (link)
Deirdre crossed the room and took hold of Jude's hand lightly.
"How long do you wait?"
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 01:08 am UTC (link)
Jude didn't shake her off but swallowed and reached for the piece of paper. "Um," she scanned. "It says...3 minutes." She couldn't meet the other girl's eye. She felt so dirty and...ashamed. What must Deirdre think of her? She must know who was responsible for this. She must know because or else she would have asked. Jude knew that much. She kept reading. "Um, one purple stripe means negative and two mean postive." She wouldn't say pregnant.
She slid down the wall and sat with her back to the bathtub, trying not to even look at the little white stick by the sink.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 01:11 am UTC (link)
Three minutes? Almost up. God, this was the longest three minutes on the face of the planet. Deirdre fiddled with the end of her shirt and tapped her toe until she noticed Jude staring at it.
"Sorry..I-" Sorry would never be enough. She took a seat on the floor next to Jude to wait.
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 01:17 am UTC (link)
She nodded. "Why?" she asked her. "Nothing for you to be sorry about. This is-" all my own fault. She bit her lip to keep silent and took a long unsteady breath.
Three minutes. Too long. Too long! It was like the entire world had been taken over by her screaming nerves and tense muscles. No words, no thoughts, just terror and shock and oh god, what do I do? What do I do???
She watched the clock on the bathroom wall.
A minute and a half to go.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 01:22 am UTC (link)
Deirdre wanted nothing more than to pull Jude into her lap and kiss her. But that wasn't going to accomplish ANYthing except maybe Jude running out of here for good. She sighed.
"No I...I was tapping. I tapped." Fucking hell. Why the hell did the test take 3 WHOLE minutes!? It was cruel. Deirdre eyed the clock as well, cracking her knuckles and cursing herself for doing a crappy job of taking care of her friend. She tried to give her a reassuring smile. Soon. They'd know soon.
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 01:30 am UTC (link)
And there it was. Three minutes.
Jude has stopped breathing somewhere and she looked at Deirdre. "Three minutes."
Slowly she stood up from the floor, not looking at Deirdre again, and walked over to the bench where the stick lay. She looked at Deirdre again and then lifted the stick, breath still held.
Negative.
Jude breathed. And then she laughed.
And then she fainted.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 01:34 am UTC (link)
Oh Jesus fucking Christ! Relief flooded through Deirdre's body, until Jude's went limp and fell to the ground. Deirdre wasn't quick enough and Jude hit the floor with a thud.
Deirdre knelt down trying to bring Jude around. "Jude! Wake the hell up!!" Finally she splashed the girl's face with water from the sink. "WAKE UP!"
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 01:36 am UTC (link)
Jude shook her head at the water and coughed and then looked at Deirdre above her. She smiled weakly. "I'm not pregnant," she whispered.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 01:42 am UTC (link)
"I know, Darling. I know." She smiled kindly down at Jude and then hlped the girl to her feet.
"Pig out fest to celebrate? You should eat something. And NOT banana brownies."
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 01:47 am UTC (link)
She laughed, loud and for longer than she should have. It was like a giant weight had finally been lifted from her and she had nothing to worry about anymore.
And, now that Deirdre mentioned it, she was really hungry. She wondered if that was why the room was spinning. Probably that and lack of sleep. "Food." she nodded. "I could eat."
Then, without knowing quite why she did it, she grabbed Deirdre and pulled her into a tight hug, pressing herself against the other girl and clinging. "thankyou," she breathed into Deirdre's shoulder.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 01:56 am UTC (link)
Deirdre closed her eyes, feeling the other girl's body against her. She held her tight and smiled. "Anytime, Jude. Really."
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 02:05 am UTC (link)
She pulled away slowly, the prolonged contact a little uncomfortable. "Let's go eat." Before I fall over.
Jude felt like life could start again. She didn't think she'd ever been so relieved in her life.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 02:10 am UTC (link)
Deirdre nodded and grinned, leading the girl slowly down the stairs. She handed Jude some garlic bread to snack on and then set about making some pasta. Pasta was good and filling.
"Do you like onion?"
She felt a little silly. Not 10 minutes ago, she'd been scare dout of her mind and now she was asking the girl if she liked onion. Still, Jude seemed so happy, she wasn't going to dwell on it. She was actually enjoying taking care of the girl. A little picture of domestic bliss? Maybe not that.
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 02:13 am UTC (link)
Jude chewed on the garlic bread. Alright, Jude devoured the garlic bread. Oh god, food! All the space that had been filled with gnawing worry was now filled with almost blinding hunger. "Onions good," she told her. "Everything," she said and looked at her, her smile still of relief. "I eat everything."
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 02:20 am UTC (link)
Deirdre laughed and smiled. "Everything. Good to know." She went back to her cooking, and soon, placed a plate of Spaghetti Bolognese in front of Jude.
"Onions are in there. Enjoy." She sat down in the chair beside Jude and picked up and apple.
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firehaunted
2006-02-27 02:26 am UTC (link)
Jude dived into the food placed in front of her. Oh god, so good! "You're a brilliant cook," she told her, mouth half full of food. She finished chewing and looked thoughtful. "And a good friend," she said seriously as she met Deirdre's eye.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-02-27 02:32 am UTC (link)
Deirdre blushed and looked intently at her apple. "Oh, hey...no problem. And thanks for the cook compliment. It comes from making my own meals since I was 9."
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