At Renee's bedside - Scarlett/Pierre
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darker_londonFrom the moment they’d allowed her in to see Renee, Scarlett hadn’t left her side. She’d pulled a chair right next to the bed and held Renee’s hand. She could barely even notice the rest of them were there now.
It was a selfish love she felt for Renee, Scarlett knew that much. It hadn’t escaped her: the way she’d been acting. She wanted Renee, only Renee. And, on a horrible selfish level that almost made her ill to think about, she wanted Renee to only be with her.
But at the moment all that was unimportant. All that mattered now was Renee living. Because if she didn’t…Scarlett couldn’t even contemplate life without her. How had Scarlett fallen so deep and so hard in such a short time? Renee had to live. Nothing else mattered. Scarlett loved her too much to lose her.
And if you go, I want to go with you
And if you die, I want to die with you.
She kissed Renee’s forehead gently. “I’m here,” she told the unconscious girl. “And I love you.”
eligible_boy
2006-04-06 09:42 pm UTC (link)
Scarlett was already by Renee's bedside when Pierre entered the room. For a moment, he just stood in the doorway. He was loathe to interrupt Scarlett's vigil... but then, she probably wasn't going anywhere anytime soon.
He could see Renee from here. She looked drawn, her fair skin even paler than usual. So very weak... Her chest rose and fell slowly beneath the blanket. That simple sight alone brought so much relief.
Remy and Emilie had left to get some sleep, now that there were others here to take care of Renee. No doubt they would be back by nightfall, and they would bring Lizzie with them. But for now at least, it was just him and Scarlett.
"Hey," he said from the doorway, and took a few steps into the room. He looked over to Renee again before adding, "I can come back later if you want some time with her..."
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-06 09:47 pm UTC (link)
Scarlett raised her head at the familliar voice and her expression changed. "Pierre!" She let got of Renee's hand and stood and crossed the few steps between Pierre and herself before pulling him into a tight hug, and pressing her face into his chest.
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eligible_boy
2006-04-06 09:51 pm UTC (link)
Pierre wrapped his arms around the redhead and held her close, wishing to whatever power there might have been that he could ease her pain. Renee was his best friend... always had been, always would be. But at the same time, he knew Scarlett's pain was just as terrible as his right now. One only had to look at her to know. She was devastated.
He kissed the top of her head and gently stroked her hair. "It is okay, Scar. Renee is going to be okay..."
Pierre stepped back just a little to appraise Scarlett with a protective eye. "Is there anything I can do for you? Food, drink? I only have to go down the hall."
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-07 02:33 am UTC (link)
She took comfort in Pierre. He sounded confident that Renee would be alright and it helped her to believe it. Still she feared it was all false hope and Renee was going to be torn away from her.
She shook her head to his questioning. "I'm not hungry," she said and made a small smile. "But thank you for asking. Are you okay? How are you coping with all this?"
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eligible_boy
2006-04-08 12:47 am UTC (link)
"It was hard at first," Pierre admitted, moving over to Renee's bed and leaning at the foot of it. "It feels selfish to say now, but I felt alone. I felt like there was no one to take care of me. But then Delilah visited me and she helped a lot."
He just stared at Renee for a moment. He had never seen her so still, even in sleep. He knew she had vivid dreams, and she always tended to move about a little in her sleep. Then he noticed her eyelids... they were flickering. Rapid eye movement.
"She is dreaming..." he murmured to no one in particular.
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-08 09:55 pm UTC (link)
"I'm sorry I was around," she told him, and she truly meant it. If only she could be in more places at once!
As for the dreaming..."Yes," she told him. "I noticed that too." She dug her nails into her own arms subconciously. "I hope they're not bad dreams."
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eligible_boy
2006-04-09 02:54 am UTC (link)
Pierre smiled a little. "She has told me what her dreams are like. If they are normal Renee dreams, they are probably about sex. Maybe with one of us!" he added, an attempt at humour.
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-09 03:02 am UTC (link)
Scarlett laughed at that and then, without meaning to, burst into tears. She took a moment to try and compose herself. "I'm sorry, I don't mean-" she shook her head and looked over at the sleeping girl. "I'm falling apart. I think I'd die without her." She looked at Pierre. "I love her," she told him. "I love her...she wanted to be with Kait and I. Together. And I didn't want either of them. And now...all I want is Renee."
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eligible_boy
2006-04-09 03:05 am UTC (link)
Pierre gently wrapped his arms around Scarlett and held her close to him. "Scarlett, I am so sorry... I had no idea. I thought that... I thought that situation was resolved."
He sighed heavily. "It will be okay, Scar. You will be able to tell Renee when she wakes up. It will not be long. She is a fighter, even if I was always the one who did the karate."
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-09 03:08 am UTC (link)
She hugged him. "I was stupid not to tell her. I kept putting it off, not sure if she still wanted anything more with me than friendship. Oh Goddess," she breathed, and moved over to the bed, touching Renee's hand gently. "I love her more than I can stand. I think of my life without her...and all the air just goes out of the room."
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eligible_boy
2006-04-09 03:12 am UTC (link)
"She has that effect on people," Pierre agreed. There was so much to be said about Renee... and somehow, none of it really needed to be said. With Scarlett and Pierre... it all passed silently between them, in their mutual love for the French girl.
"I am always here for you if you need someone. And for Kait too, for that matter. But it sounds like you need a friend who is not so... someone who does not have romantic claims to Renee. I'm sorry... my Englais is not good enough to put things delicately."
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-09 03:16 am UTC (link)
She smiled at him, and moving close to him once more, kissed his cheek. "You're a wonderful friend. Sometimes I forget that I've only known the both of you for so short a time. You're both already so impossibly dear to me."
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eligible_boy
2006-04-09 03:18 am UTC (link)
"You are dear to me too," Pierre smiled. "It has been a long three months..."
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-09 03:20 am UTC (link)
She smiled slightly at that. "The longest three months I've ever lived." She sat down at the seat she had been in since she arrived. "Can she hear me, do you think? Does she know I'm here? I trust the Goddess to watch over her."
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eligible_boy
2006-04-09 03:24 am UTC (link)
Pierre pulled up a chair and sat down next to Scarlett. "The doctors seem to think that she can. Not consciously, but in the deeper part of her brain it would help her to get better. And I think that if she is dreaming then her brain must be working. So I think she does know. And she knows that you love her. I do not know what this is all about, really. But she was going very crazy, and I think maybe you are a big reason why things did not get worse much sooner than they did."
It was a selfish love she felt for Renee, Scarlett knew that much. It hadn’t escaped her: the way she’d been acting. She wanted Renee, only Renee. And, on a horrible selfish level that almost made her ill to think about, she wanted Renee to only be with her.
But at the moment all that was unimportant. All that mattered now was Renee living. Because if she didn’t…Scarlett couldn’t even contemplate life without her. How had Scarlett fallen so deep and so hard in such a short time? Renee had to live. Nothing else mattered. Scarlett loved her too much to lose her.
And if you go, I want to go with you
And if you die, I want to die with you.
She kissed Renee’s forehead gently. “I’m here,” she told the unconscious girl. “And I love you.”
eligible_boy
2006-04-06 09:42 pm UTC (link)
Scarlett was already by Renee's bedside when Pierre entered the room. For a moment, he just stood in the doorway. He was loathe to interrupt Scarlett's vigil... but then, she probably wasn't going anywhere anytime soon.
He could see Renee from here. She looked drawn, her fair skin even paler than usual. So very weak... Her chest rose and fell slowly beneath the blanket. That simple sight alone brought so much relief.
Remy and Emilie had left to get some sleep, now that there were others here to take care of Renee. No doubt they would be back by nightfall, and they would bring Lizzie with them. But for now at least, it was just him and Scarlett.
"Hey," he said from the doorway, and took a few steps into the room. He looked over to Renee again before adding, "I can come back later if you want some time with her..."
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-06 09:47 pm UTC (link)
Scarlett raised her head at the familliar voice and her expression changed. "Pierre!" She let got of Renee's hand and stood and crossed the few steps between Pierre and herself before pulling him into a tight hug, and pressing her face into his chest.
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eligible_boy
2006-04-06 09:51 pm UTC (link)
Pierre wrapped his arms around the redhead and held her close, wishing to whatever power there might have been that he could ease her pain. Renee was his best friend... always had been, always would be. But at the same time, he knew Scarlett's pain was just as terrible as his right now. One only had to look at her to know. She was devastated.
He kissed the top of her head and gently stroked her hair. "It is okay, Scar. Renee is going to be okay..."
Pierre stepped back just a little to appraise Scarlett with a protective eye. "Is there anything I can do for you? Food, drink? I only have to go down the hall."
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-07 02:33 am UTC (link)
She took comfort in Pierre. He sounded confident that Renee would be alright and it helped her to believe it. Still she feared it was all false hope and Renee was going to be torn away from her.
She shook her head to his questioning. "I'm not hungry," she said and made a small smile. "But thank you for asking. Are you okay? How are you coping with all this?"
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eligible_boy
2006-04-08 12:47 am UTC (link)
"It was hard at first," Pierre admitted, moving over to Renee's bed and leaning at the foot of it. "It feels selfish to say now, but I felt alone. I felt like there was no one to take care of me. But then Delilah visited me and she helped a lot."
He just stared at Renee for a moment. He had never seen her so still, even in sleep. He knew she had vivid dreams, and she always tended to move about a little in her sleep. Then he noticed her eyelids... they were flickering. Rapid eye movement.
"She is dreaming..." he murmured to no one in particular.
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-08 09:55 pm UTC (link)
"I'm sorry I was around," she told him, and she truly meant it. If only she could be in more places at once!
As for the dreaming..."Yes," she told him. "I noticed that too." She dug her nails into her own arms subconciously. "I hope they're not bad dreams."
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eligible_boy
2006-04-09 02:54 am UTC (link)
Pierre smiled a little. "She has told me what her dreams are like. If they are normal Renee dreams, they are probably about sex. Maybe with one of us!" he added, an attempt at humour.
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-09 03:02 am UTC (link)
Scarlett laughed at that and then, without meaning to, burst into tears. She took a moment to try and compose herself. "I'm sorry, I don't mean-" she shook her head and looked over at the sleeping girl. "I'm falling apart. I think I'd die without her." She looked at Pierre. "I love her," she told him. "I love her...she wanted to be with Kait and I. Together. And I didn't want either of them. And now...all I want is Renee."
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eligible_boy
2006-04-09 03:05 am UTC (link)
Pierre gently wrapped his arms around Scarlett and held her close to him. "Scarlett, I am so sorry... I had no idea. I thought that... I thought that situation was resolved."
He sighed heavily. "It will be okay, Scar. You will be able to tell Renee when she wakes up. It will not be long. She is a fighter, even if I was always the one who did the karate."
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-09 03:08 am UTC (link)
She hugged him. "I was stupid not to tell her. I kept putting it off, not sure if she still wanted anything more with me than friendship. Oh Goddess," she breathed, and moved over to the bed, touching Renee's hand gently. "I love her more than I can stand. I think of my life without her...and all the air just goes out of the room."
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eligible_boy
2006-04-09 03:12 am UTC (link)
"She has that effect on people," Pierre agreed. There was so much to be said about Renee... and somehow, none of it really needed to be said. With Scarlett and Pierre... it all passed silently between them, in their mutual love for the French girl.
"I am always here for you if you need someone. And for Kait too, for that matter. But it sounds like you need a friend who is not so... someone who does not have romantic claims to Renee. I'm sorry... my Englais is not good enough to put things delicately."
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-09 03:16 am UTC (link)
She smiled at him, and moving close to him once more, kissed his cheek. "You're a wonderful friend. Sometimes I forget that I've only known the both of you for so short a time. You're both already so impossibly dear to me."
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eligible_boy
2006-04-09 03:18 am UTC (link)
"You are dear to me too," Pierre smiled. "It has been a long three months..."
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scarlettvoices
2006-04-09 03:20 am UTC (link)
She smiled slightly at that. "The longest three months I've ever lived." She sat down at the seat she had been in since she arrived. "Can she hear me, do you think? Does she know I'm here? I trust the Goddess to watch over her."
(Reply to this)(Parent)
eligible_boy
2006-04-09 03:24 am UTC (link)
Pierre pulled up a chair and sat down next to Scarlett. "The doctors seem to think that she can. Not consciously, but in the deeper part of her brain it would help her to get better. And I think that if she is dreaming then her brain must be working. So I think she does know. And she knows that you love her. I do not know what this is all about, really. But she was going very crazy, and I think maybe you are a big reason why things did not get worse much sooner than they did."
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