darker_london | Confession - Melissa/Deirdre

Just as she'd said she would, Melissa came straight to Deirdre's house after her ballet practise. She hadn't even changed, just thrown a big white wool jumper and trackpants over her training leotard.

By the time she knocked on Deirdre's door she was well and truly nervous.

deirdre_ionuin
2006-05-22 08:22 pm UTC (link)
She was nowhere near as nervous as Deirdre was. Deirdre had cooked the dinner and fed everyone and celebrated her getting a role in the play, but it was all a happy act. She was terrified. And when the knock sounded on the door, she almost vomited.

Lovely.

But she managed to get down to the door. She pulled it open and put on her best fake smile, knowing that her Liss would see right through it. "Hey. Come in. There's food. In there." She pointed at the kitchen.
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littlesoulbird
2006-05-22 08:25 pm UTC (link)
Well, that was an impressivly large fake smile. "Thank god," she told her when food was mentioned. "I've been dancing for almost two and a half hours. I thought I was going to die!" Her instructer had been so pleased about Melissa's audition for Swan Lake that she'd had her working overtime to prepare. Food wasn't really just hanging around.

As she made her way into the kitchen she took Deirde's hand and didn't let go.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-05-22 08:31 pm UTC (link)
Deirdre smiled slightly, for real that time. She loved it when Melissa held her hand. She pulled a plate out of the oven and put it on the table, removing the tinfoil. "Still hot. And erm....everyone else has scattered so we can talk here. Though if you hear loud yelling, that's just Tim and Evey. Ignore it."
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littlesoulbird
2006-05-22 08:34 pm UTC (link)
"You mean like sex noises?" She wrinkled up her nose and then grinned. "You have amusing housemates."

The smell of the food. Oh god. So good!
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-05-22 08:39 pm UTC (link)
"Yes. Sex noises most likely. My cousin moves in and promptly sexes it up. Oh well, makes her happy. Go ahead and eat if you want." Deirdre sighed. "And I guess I could explain what's happening...with me."
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littlesoulbird
2006-05-22 08:42 pm UTC (link)
Melissa's hunger faded slightly with Deirdre's tone and words but since she hadn't eaten all day and had been burning off...well, nothing for hours she had to eat. "Okay. But first: I missed you. When I wasn't here. Since France. I've missed you. I wish I'd been here more." Even tonight she wasn't meant to be. She'd find an excuse for her mother later.

She grabbed a fork and shoveled some food into her mouth.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-05-22 08:47 pm UTC (link)
"I've missed you too. And I wanted you to be here. I needed someone..." Deirdre trailed off. She was glad Liss hadn't seen her the night she'd lost it over Tasha's comments. But for everything else, Melissa would have made it better.

"Uhm...so..." How did you really explain it. Really? "A few weeks ago, a friend of mine tried to kill himself. Uhm..he slit his throat and because I know his family I went to his house and I cleaned up the...mess. I didn't want them to have to do it. And then I was on my journal and Tasha, Renee's bitch of a cousin, was taunting me about it. And I...kind of had a breakdown."
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littlesoulbird
2006-05-22 09:03 pm UTC (link)
Melissa's face had fallen into an expression of pain and sympathy and her food was forgotton. "Oh honey," she reached across the table and squeezed Deirdre's hand.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-05-22 09:13 pm UTC (link)
"Oh there's...there's more..." Deirdre took a deep breath. "I'm...different. There's something different about me and sometimes it makes me lose my temper. Uhm...in bad ways. And I have a friend named Peter who helps me with it. Peter used to be a priest and he's the father of the girl we saved. Anyway, he helps be but I slipped that night and he had to come over and try to stop me and I hurt him. And it scared me. And then Evey and I went out and we got mugged and I really beat someone up and I came back here because I felt like I was going to have another breakdown and I hid because I didn't want to hurt anyone else and then Peter took me to his house and I hurt him really bad but I am better now."

Wow...that made no sense.
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littlesoulbird
2006-05-22 09:18 pm UTC (link)
Melissa stared for a moment, blinked, and then said: "Huh?"
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-05-22 09:20 pm UTC (link)
Deirdre banged her head on the table. Several times.

"I'm...I'm different. I'm stronger than most people amoung other things. And I've been bad until lately but I'm fixed now." Deirdre paused. She needed to just TELL Melissa how she was different. "If I tell you, you're going to think I've gone mad. Uhm...if you don't already."
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littlesoulbird
2006-05-22 09:25 pm UTC (link)
"Hey!" Melissa rached forward to try and put her hand between Deirdre's head and the table. What was going ON?? "I'll think you're mad? Well, I've gotta say the headbanging isn't all that sane." She gave Deirdre a loving smile to show she was just kidding around and was now, yes, slightly more worried about her. What was she talking about. Stronger than most people? Bad? ... Was Deirdre on drugs?
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-05-22 09:33 pm UTC (link)
"I'm a...I'm a de...dem...anding person..." Oh you fucking liar.

"No...Liss.." Deirdre swallowed. Melissa wasn't going to believe her at all, but Deirdre didn't want to lie.

"I'm a demon. But...not like the ones in the movies. I am one because my father was one but I'm still just me. Just Deirdre. Only...srtonger and with a quicker temper...heh."
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littlesoulbird
2006-05-22 09:42 pm UTC (link)
The urge to say 'huh?' again was coming on strong but Melissa thought maybe it wasn't the most useful reaction. So she paused to think for a moment, trying to process what Deirdre was trying to tell her.

...

"Huh?"
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-05-22 09:45 pm UTC (link)
Deirdre just slumped down in her chair. What else could she say, that WAS the truth.

"It doesn't matter." Deirdre shook her head. None of it matters anymore anyway.
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littlesoulbird
2006-05-22 09:47 pm UTC (link)
Melissa was watching her very carefully, through her confusion. "A demon?" This didn't seem like a very Deirdre kind of joke. In fact, Deirdre didn't seem to be joking at all. Which just made it all the more confusing.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-05-22 09:57 pm UTC (link)
"Yeah. Don't worry, I'm not gonna grow horns or like...burn crosses and sacrifice virgins or anything."
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littlesoulbird
2006-05-22 10:15 pm UTC (link)
"Well...that's...good."

She chewed her lip and frowned before looking at her again. "Deirdre, I'm kind of confused."
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-05-22 10:20 pm UTC (link)
"I don't know how to explain it unless you tell me what I need to explain."
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littlesoulbird
2006-05-22 10:23 pm UTC (link)
"Let's start with the part about...how can you be a demon? How do you mean demon? There are demons now?"
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-05-22 10:26 pm UTC (link)
"Yeah. There are demons now. I didn't know I was one until recently. Been a helluva year. Demons aren't like they are in stories or anything like that. I'm still just Deirdre. But I am strong and uhm...stuff. Most demons can't control themselves and they're pretty icky but Peter has been helping me so I can control myself and not be icky..."
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littlesoulbird
2006-05-22 10:33 pm UTC (link)
"Okay."

It was all she could really think to say. Absentmindly she chewed on the sleeve of her jumper and stared at the tabletop. This was alot to take in and she wasn't quite sure she was getting it. There were demons. Things called demons, at least. But not like Buffy demons, it seemed. And Deirdre was one of them.
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deirdre_ionuin
2006-05-22 10:34 pm UTC (link)
"Are you going to eat your dinner?" Deirdre said, looking worried. "Don't get sick, Liss."