They talked about it a lot in Narcotics Anonymous. They discussed their various reasons for not succumbing to their addictions, and the reasons were never the same from person to person, though a lot of them involved family or loved ones. And Julian's reasons certainly did that as well, though secretly he felt it was maybe different than everyone else who spoke up, spouting love for their family and friends, spouses and lovers. Julian did what he did not out of love necessarily. He stayed away from heroin out of shame.
( Shame )
( Shame )