"Well that's dumb," Rachel said, stroking his hair. "I take back what I said about you being smarter than Zoe because that is just dumb."

"I get it," Zoe said quietly, because she understood the complicated ways in which people punished themselves for living. "I mean, she's right, it's dumb, you don't need to punish yourself for that, but, I get it."

Cai just tried really hard not to crawl under the bed and hide from hos terrible the world was right now. He did quite well, but his face was inching past horrified and into devastated, while trying not to change expressions at all.