Cai was very worried about this. He didn't have much to compare it to. It wasn't like the feeling you got before you had to take a test you weren't prepared for, apart from the undercurrent of anxiety. He wasn't even dreading it as much as he'd dreaded his mother's funeral because that was, at least, a peaceful thing. It wasn't like either of those things but anxiety and dread were definitely present.

He held out his hand to Zoe, and could hardly believe that it was only a few hours ago that he'd been kissing her. For a moment he wanted to give this all up and just kiss her again, here and now on the floor of Peter's office. Kiss her hard and with abandon and forget the rest of everything.

Zoe laced her fingers through his and he held on tight.

"I'm ready," breathed Zoe, lying through her teeth.