"That's really bad," Rachel said softly. "I lost my brothers. And my mother. I'm not trying to one up you," she added quickly. "I mean I always wanted a sister. Ak- that was a stupid thing to say I'm sorry. I think maybe my dad kept me in hospital for so long after that because he didn't know what I would do? I mean," she took a deep breath. "What I meant to say was, that I was in hospital after they died. Just like you."